I check my horoscope daily. Usually while I wait for the bus in the morning. And given that I check it from an app I downloaded for free, I try to not put too much stock into what it says. I mean really, I am an educated logical person. Especially because it usually in no way prepares me for the day ahead.
Every once in a while though, the Universe, regardless of your horoscope, seems to know what's up. And that certainly seemed to be the case last night when I checked out my Google Reader and saw a new A P O C A L Y P S T I C K post entitled How to Deal With a Break up. This seemed serendipitous because it occurred shortly after a phone call with GIBS, in which it was clarified that we want different things, and that he will no longer be the "Guy I've Been Seeing", but just a "Guy", I guess, from now on.
Anyway, I got ice cream with Precisely because, ummm, that's what you do right away of course, and then started drinking wine, and watched "How to Deal with a Break up" which is absolutely genius, and which I may or may not have spent the majority of last night quoting. Seriously you guys, watch this.
I will say, that while this situation caught me off-guard, and while it certainly sucks in a lot of ways, it's also maybe the best break-up or non-break-up (I don't know, what do you call it when you've ended things with someone who wasn't your bf?) I've ever had. For the first time, I was really honest, both with myself, and the person I was seeing about my level of interest, and what I wanted. I went on more than 3 dates! I went way out of my comfort zone putting myself out there, didn't get what I wanted, and will be ok. This whole experience has restored my faith in dating (at least a little).
I would have done nothing differently, it was an awesome month or so. So, thank you GIBS, for asking me out in the first place. It was really fun.
And bigger thank you's to Precisely, the Lady of Leisure, the Other #1 Big Hurry fan, the Artist, and RubbersoulLess, for buying me beers, listening, saying all the right things, closing out the bar with me on a Wednesday, and being more angry about this situation than I am. Y'all mean the world to me.
I will say this. I have the best friends. And I feel so lucky and a little smug that I have surrounded myself with such amazing individuals.